In attempt to start this blog post half a dozen times, I’ve noticed that the ongoing theme for me this year has been frazzled. I can’t seem to get into a good groove with a lot…cleaning, reading, cooking/meal prep, sex, blogging, you name it.
So in order to give the illusion of a normal thought process, here’s a tidbit update:
A.) I’ve been going back and forth with this blog, buy my domain name and go all in, promote it and have it out there or just abandon it, jump ship and start another blog, or just give up in general. However, deleting this blog seems like a defeat of some sort and I just don’t like the way that feels and I can’t even spit out a post a month so who am I kidding buying a domain?! I guess for now I’ll just try to commit myself to posting more thoughtful, consistent content.
B.) Being a bridesmaid in a wedding is a lot, as much as I love my cousin, I’m so ready for the wedding to be here.
C.) I look forward to summer every year and yet for the last two weeks I can’t stop thinking about how lovely autumn is.
D.) I just got back from a week at Disneyworld. My family is still there for a week and while I’m bummed I couldn’t be with them for two weeks, I’m thankful I got to go for a week HOWEVER, Florida in August is bloody horrible. Disney is like therapy for your soul, it really is magical but it can also be absolute torture. I’ve never been more aware of my body. The heat, the 10k steps everyday for 6 days, it was brutal.
Which brings me to…
E.) I found the most unflattering picture of me in Florida and I’m going to post it for a very specific reason. Some of my bestest friends at work are aware I have a blog and when I was asked what it was about, I got tripped up for a moment. I just waved it off and said it’s about random stuff but lately it seems like it does in fact have a very specific theme: displeasure. Displeasure with stuff in my life but more so displeasure with myself. It’s not a weight loss blog, it’s a miserable blog about a girl who seems like she really doesn’t like herself and a blog about a girl who seems like she doesn’t have it together.
So heres my before picture, nothing sucked, nothing tucked…
And with that concludes the last half assed, lustreless post (…well not forever, but you know what I’m saying). Tomorrow I’m going to wake up with a new plan, a new attitude but with my old hair which I’ve missed oh-so much because all last week, I looked like this: