I think I forgot how to blog, or that I have a blog, or possibly that at one time, I loved my blog.
Lots of things have been going on, but nothing really seems new. I have a new work schedule that I absolutely hate but I keep reminding myself that my full time wages are not only making a big different in the quality of my life but also my sanity and my savings account. Its a challenging job at times but it doesn’t really spark any creativity so I’m trying to remember how to write focused, meaningful posts, I miss that feeling of posting something heartfelt.
I received my bridesmaid dress and I’m already wondering if it’s alter-able. The finality of a bridesmaid dress that fits you now perfectly, despite the fact that you’d like to be at least 3 sizes smaller by the wedding, fills me with anxiety. I’ll work on it…tomorrow.
Despite not writing, I’ve been reading more. The commute to work leaves me with 1.5 hours of glorious Kobo time.
I really miss cooking. My new work schedule, 12:00 p.m – 8:00 p.m, leaves me no real time to properly cook a meal. However, I have been eating a big, proper breakfast which is kind of nice. Lately I’ve been eating scrambled eggs, some greek yogurt and a crumpet.
I’ve been trying to add some different clothing pieces into my wardrobe, things that I normally wouldn’t buy, kind of scary but kind of liberating as well. I, Erin, bought a horizontal striped obnoxiously neon pink shirt….yep.
I can’t remember if I mentioned it in my last blog, but my grandparents are taking my family to Disney again in August so I’m super excited for that. My type-A personality is ready and raring to go, I’ve been making lists and itineraries since they told us.
I’m also toying with the idea of changing up this blog and making it public, even promoting it. I always try to scale myself back a bit, self edit, make sure I don’t cross “the” line but now more than ever, I just want to write posts that really reflect my thoughts, feelings and personality. I also want to write about different things, weight and non-weight related. I’ve always compartmentalized my life, different faces for different people and what not.
It’s kind of funny, my mom always said that women really come into their own when they’re 25. I’m turning 26 in May and I think I’m finally ready to show the world, who I am, unapologetically.
And just so we don’t go too far out there, for the record in the last 3 weeks I’ve lost 8 pounds, and it feels pretty damn good.